Today is your birthday and I wish so much for you. My wish is for you to fill yourself up again. With happiness. With LOVE. With all the things that make you graceful. You’ve been through hell baby girl. I know it hurts you when you think about how they were all waiting for you to not be enough… and you weren’t. You never could be. You just have to be enough for YOU! You’ve tried to tell yourself many a morning that it was all just a bad dream…but it wasn’t. It was real, now get up. Don’t think about it just pick yourself up and get out of your own mind. Only you can do this. You tried your very best. You poured all of your heart out for someone and it nearly killed you…but it’s time to get up. It’s time to try your best again. This time for YOU! Time for your rebirth. You can do this. Leave it all behind, let it go, free yourself. You are one of God’s soldiers, you always have been. You will turn your pain into purpose. Perhaps to help others? Either way baby girl…it is done. You can’t go back. It’s time to get up. Pick up your pencil and write. Tell it all, from the very beginning, before him, before them. From the very start, when you lay in the front yard at 7 years old and ran your hands in the soft windblown grass. You closed your eyes and dreamt of beautiful words and poems. You’re special, you’ve always been special. Your words and stories are healing, like magic, to yourself and hopefully to others.
It’s time to GET UP! Today is the day! We’re already behind schedule…OH…and Happy Birthday, your final gift is peace.
“They’re waiting, they’re watching, they’re watching us, they’re hating, they’re waiting and hoping..I’m not enough…”
CELLOPHANE – FKA Twigs
Ronny Grant 